Hey there

March 28, 2008 - 3:35am

Hey everyone,

This is my first blog anywhere. Wow I think that makes me old, or way behind on the times LOL

My name is Stephanie and I'm 32 years old. I am the wife of a wonderful man whose only fault is he hates country music (don't worry I'll wear him down eventually)

I am also the mother of two wonderful beautiful children who are autistic. They were diagnosed almost a year ago. My daughter is 5 1/2 she is verbal but echos things constantly rather than real conversation. My son is 4 and pre-verbal he has a total of about 3-5 words that he uses on a regular basis. He uses PECS (Picture Exchange Communication System) to tell us what he wants and needs.

As a quick plug for my cause April is "Autism Awareness Month" keep it in mind. 1 in every 150 children is diagnosed with autism the rate for boys is 1 in every 96

I have written two poems that were inspried by my children, their struggles and my struggles being the parent of special needs children. Several people I have shown them to think they would make good song lyrics. I'm not sure about that I'm not a song writer and I don't know anyone who is.

Ok disclaimer time- I don't expect Big and Rich to read this and write music for this. Though hey if it happened believe me I wouldn't say no hehe

I also don't expect that I will get music written for this and become an over night sensation. Truthfully I don't know that I want that. I really just thought that is was an interesting idea so here we go if you write music or know someone who does who might like to try this project with me let me know. If not hey that's cool too I really like the poems as they are and won't be upset if they aren't lyric material

GIVE ME A CHANCE

I don't want your pity
I don't want your shame
I want you to educate
I want you to understand

This is my life
This is who I am
I'm not here for entertainment
I'm not here for blame

I struggle to learn
I struggle to cope
When you tell me I can't
I hear you won't help

This is my life
This is who I am
I'm not a T.V. show
I'm not a joke

You don't have to love me
We don't have to be friends
I just need you to stand back
and give me a chance

THE STORM RAGES

Flesh of my Flesh
heart of my Heart
your tears are my rain
your laughter my sun

Though the storm rages
with anger and hate
I’ll be your anchor
as you have been mine

How do I pierce the dark
where you’re lost?
how do I find the
light of your smile?

Though the storm rages
with fear and regret
I’ll be your anchor
as you have been mine

My heart is in turmoil
watching you struggle
wanting to help and
not knowing how

This much I promise
this much I vow
no matter the storm
or how it may rage

In you, around you
For or against you

I will be with you
I will be there
fighting the rain
in search of my sun